Sometimes we work so hard to exceed expectations and that results in setting the base for another whole level of expectations and we end up not being able to fulfill. Because it then becomes a moving goal post.

Being ambitious, being driven and being focused comes with its own set of negatives and emotional baggage. You become focused, you become independent and you find ways to do everything on your own. When you lift your head up, you realize you have moved up to reach your goal (that just keeps on moving up) and you have let life passed. But the thing is, have you let life passed by? In the eyes of others, you may have because you have no husband, no child to call your own, or you don’t have what is deemed accepted as “life”. But the reality is you have lived the life YOU wanted.

The expectations that we say we don’t want or what we tell not to expect is it within us or from the outside world? Sometimes I feel like I expect too much from me. Constantly moving the goal post, constantly stretching the boundaries, always testing my strength, always and always running… constantly thriving for the NEXT BIG THING.

But there comes a point in life, where you question everything. Including your focus. What should we focus on? What do I expect from me? what do I expect for me? Do I exceed expectations for me or Do I exceed expectations for the other parties?

What actually hurts is when people you do everything for, question you back and say “we never asked you to” or “we never expected you to” So its really not others… Its my expectations of myself that constantly make me want to keep moving. I don’t know to let go, I don’t know to give up and I sure as hell don’t know how not to fight back. This is me. I have not become this easily, so I make no apologies for how hard I work, how hard I run the race, how passionately I love, how passionately I work, I make no apologies for how hard I fight for those I love and care.

I am sure there are those who resonate with me. I write for those who do, not for those who don’t. I write for myself. I write for those like me, who are ambitious, who are driven and who take no nonsense in life. Who are direct, blunt and have clarity of what they want and thrive to get it and keep the goal post moving.

I will make no apologies for how deeply I feel, the depth of my emotions, the depth of my care, the depth of my strength. I will keep going forward. You want to stop me, go ahead and try, I will only try harder not to stop.